In one moment, the whole course of my life would be changed. I did not realize it then, when I held this beautiful baby girl we named Anna Hope. In her first seven years we would pass through doors, that we would have never considered going through on our own. She would introduce to me pain, suffering and weakness that I never would have signed up for...
Why didn't God give me some permission slip, lining it all out, warning me of all the side effects to the coming storms? I think He knew my prayers for “Being more like Him” and my heart did not match. He knew Anna, would teach me HOPE, but my small little heart could not contain all He had to give. Stretching was needed. Capacity was necessary.
He knew I would not have signed, if I knew all then...and 22 years later I'm glad He did not ask my permission. This was His Grace and Mercy to me.
We really do not want a shallow peace or hope, but one filled to all the measure He has for us. Are we willing for Him to do what it takes to “expand” our hearts?
"Faith's most severe tests come not when we see nothing, but when we see a stunning array of evidence that seems to prove our faith vain." — Elisabeth Elliot (These Strange Ashes)
"But the question to precede all others, which finally determines the course of our lives is What do I really want? Was it to love what God commands, in the words of the collect, and to desire what He promises? Did I want what I wanted, or did I want what He wanted, no matter what it might cost?" — Elisabeth Elliot (Passion and Purity: Learning to Bring Your Love Life Under Christ's Control)
Happy Birthday Anna! My assigned angel, to teach me HOPE.
Whitney had a few thoughts too...