Friday, December 28, 2018

My Costco Card

When I go in public, I am really
not thinking about my “identity”
as a Mom with a special needs,
adult child. We just ARE, and
we just DO...and there are times
I realize that we stand out a bit.
Especially, when she starts
expressing her displeasure.

The other day, the sweetest thing happened.
We went to get a Costco card,
and as I rolled Anna over to
the blue background in her wheel
chair, and stood to take my
photo...the man taking it said,
“Let me get both of you in the
picture...bend down, and look up”

I did...and he did...and I realized
something. My identity is
very much wrapped up in this
posture, of caring and loving this
daughter of mine. We have
become inseparable, and this does
have an effect on how I look
at life. Its fitting that she is
pictured with me, 
on my Costco card.:)

And the more ONE we become
with what others count as
limiting circumstances, the
greater view we have, as my
heart bows down, and looks up.
Really, its a beautiful view from

that position.  And as I proceeded to
walk through the store, I am thankful
that my Heavenly Father 
had this picture in mind for me
 from the beginning.   

You are never to complain of your birth, your training, 
your employments, your hardships; never to fancy that you could be something if only you had a different lot and sphere assigned you. God understands His own plan, and He knows what you want a great deal better than you do. The very things that you most deprecate, as fatal limitations or obstructions, are probably what you most want. What you call hindrances, obstacles, discouragements, are probably God's opportunities. Bring down your soul, or rather, bring it up to receive God's will and do His work, in your lot, in your sphere, under your cloud of obscurity, against your temptations, and then you shall find that your condition is never opposed to your good,
 but really consistent with it.~Horace Bushnell

"That's another truth that enables me to keep going.  Whatever strings are broken in our lives--we can still play beautiful music with what we have left.  In fact, it will be music that no one else can play in the the same way."
~ Joni Eareckson Tada

Sunday, August 26, 2018

Peace and Rest

"The Lord is thy keeper:  the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand." Ps. cxxi.5. 
"Great peace have they which love Thy law: and nothing shall offend them." Ps. cxix.165
     I rest beneath the Almighty's shade, My griefs expire, my troubles cease; Thou, Lord, on whom my soul is stayed.  Wilt keep me still in perfect peace. ~C. Wesley.
     One great sign of the practical recognition of the "divine moment," and of our finding God's habitation in it, is constant calmness and peace of mind.
     Events and things come with the moment; but God comes with them too.  So that if He comes in the sunshine, we find rest and joy; and if He comes in the storm, we know He is King of the storms, and our hearts are not troubled.  God Himself, though possessing a heart filled with the tenderest feelings, is, nevertheless, an everlasting tranquility; and when we enter into His holy tabernacle, our souls necessarily enter into the tabernacle of rest. ~T.C. Upham
     My soul was not only brought into harmony with itself and with God, but with God's providences.  In the exercise of faith and love, I endured and performed whatever came in God's providence, in submission, in thankfulness, and silence.  ~Madame Guyon.
Daily Strength for Daily Needs (April 28)

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Permission Slips

In one moment, the whole course of my life would be changed. I did not realize it then, when I held this beautiful baby girl we named Anna Hope. In her first seven years we would pass through doors, that we would have never considered going through on our own. She would introduce to me pain, suffering and weakness that I never would have signed up for...

Why didn't God give me some permission slip, lining it all out, warning me of all the side effects to the coming storms? I think He knew my prayers for “Being more like Him” and my heart did not match. He knew Anna, would teach me HOPE, but my small little heart could not contain all He had to give. Stretching was needed. Capacity was necessary. 

He knew I would not have signed, if I knew all then...and 22 years later I'm glad He did not ask my permission. This was His Grace and Mercy to me.

We really do not want a shallow peace or hope, but one filled to all the measure He has for us. Are we willing for Him to do what it takes to “expand” our hearts?

"Faith's most severe tests come not when we see nothing, but when we see a stunning array of evidence that seems to prove our faith vain." — Elisabeth Elliot (These Strange Ashes)

"But the question to precede all others, which finally determines the course of our lives is What do I really want? Was it to love what God commands, in the words of the collect, and to desire what He promises? Did I want what I wanted, or did I want what He wanted, no matter what it might cost?" — Elisabeth Elliot (Passion and Purity: Learning to Bring Your Love Life Under Christ's Control)

Happy Birthday Anna!  My assigned angel, to teach me HOPE. 
Whitney had a few thoughts too...